Contradicting

Sometimes, I say I'm okay,
Because I want you to say
That I'm lying.

Sometimes, I smile so wide,
Because I want you to know
That I've been crying

Sometimes, I write
To tell you the things
I'm scared to say

Sometimes, I leave
Because I'm scared
Of you walking away

I contradict myself, yes
You try and see.

Sometimes, I act like you
Because, really, I'm scared to be me.