I thought you were immortal

Looking away, can't bear to look at those words.
1940-2008 ' she was gods gift to earth'
Nothing will bring you back.
Not even the millions of tears i shed on your stone.
Not even the countless prayers we say on our kneels, all alone.
Not even screaming your name as the moon radiates.
Not even the red roses i hand picked at our gate.
Pain has hit me, it has struck me, piercing my body.
Nothing can hurt me as much as you did leaving me on this planet to face without you by my side.
Don't you care, it should have been me that died!
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