Its really hard for me to just let you go.
I was with you for a year & thought you were the one,
Everything about you is what i had always wished for
until i found out the controlling part of you.
Oh How i wish i could've lived my life,
as you lived yours & we had full trust...
I admitted my faults & fixed them for me & you
but you felt as if you never had a issue or problem.
Now that Ive circled back & forth to you several times,
you have come to realization that I'm gone for good,
I wish you would have noticed when we were trying,
but you stayed the same now look what we've lost.
I gave you everything & more,
gave up my life, my friends, you came first,
you came home everyday to a clean
somehow find something to get at me about
never was anything good enough.
Now all I have from all this is a broken heart
and feeling that i failed, use to think it was all my fault,
now I realize that it was us both that made this happen.
Anything we do now will only defect not help...
We tried to make things work to many times to count,
Ive found & fixed my issues -- something you cant say,
I wont let my son live a mirrored image of my childhood
which is where its headed sometime in a future with you.
Forever you will be in my heart and i will love you,
no longer will I deal with this control & heartbreak.
It'll only be used & thrown in each others faces
Goodbye from now until forever....
