I'm not like this
every night
i try to stay like this
so everyone thinks i'm alright
i still feel like crying
i still feel like breaking
and every moment without you
is another that iv'e missed
and i still miss you
you broke my heart
you tried to hurt me so
determined in all that you are
i never thought i'd fear my own father
and i'm a wreck
and i want a broken neck
but i can't go
i promised i would stay alive
i'm not like this
every night
i try stay like this
so everyone thinks i'm alright
i still feel like crying
i still feel like breaking
and every moment with out
is another that i've missed
and i still miss you
you used to be my hero
i used to look up to you
but now i think i've gotten taller
now i look down on you
you broke my heart
you stole my innocence
you made me an adult
before i was even ten
i'm not like this
every night
i try to stay like this
so everyone thinks i'm alright
i still feel like crying
i still feel like breaking
and every moment without you
is another moment that i've missed
and i still miss you
after all the pain you put me through
you'd think i'd move on
forget about your approval
but i still want all those words
i still want you to say you're proud
i still want to hear that i'm enough for you
i want to hear these convinceing words
i want to stop loving you
i'm not like this
every night
i try to stay like this
so everyone thinks i'm alright
i still feel like crying
i still feel like breaking
and everymoment without you
is another moment that i missed
even though i miss you
i can't be near you
someday you wont' have control of me
someday i will see your face
and no longer feel any pain
