My First

Thinking of you everyday
Dreaming of you everynight
Hoping that this time you'll stay
And not leave because it's not right

I live everyday with those thoughts
Wondering if you'll ever leave me
Looking at how much, for you, I've fought
If only you open your eyes, you'll see

How much I really cared
How much I cried
During this whole time I was scared
Because I knew how much you lied

I knew I would fall hard on the ground
You're a stupid no-life hore
You will leave me with no sound
But somehow I wanted you even more

You gave me my first kiss
You were the only one to hold my hand
You gave me a feeling of heavenly bliss
I knew you were my man

I won't ever regret
Loving a man like you
I won't ever forget
Because you taught me a lesson too

To never trust anyone
With anything that you hold dear
Secrets, boys, heart, none
For they will stab you in the rear

You've made me stronger
I won't be that pushover anymore
You gave me that power
So, life, what else do you have in store?

** This is written to the man who really broke my heart.