Lost soul

So I'm mailing this letter out
to whom it may concern
and if you all are reading this
it should be a lesson learned

tonight there is a child
who is giving up her life
pleading to the lord
turning for the knife

falling to the floor
calling out a name
screaming to god
wishing she was sane

never planning a future
because she knew her life would end
giving up everything
after she lost her only friend

her eyes are red and puffy
from all of the crying
she doesn't want to go back
she knows that she is dying

this is no life
for a fifteen year old
her heart is burnt black
and her blood is running cold

she lost everything around her
and nothing is the same
when her best friend died
she went insane

she watched her get hit
by that metal SUV
standing on the sidewalk
while her best friends in the street

she didn't see it coming
and everything just stopped
then it happened
and the little girl just dropped

she couldn't move
she couldn't breathe
she couldn't cry
she couldn't speak

her heart fell down
all the way to concrete
all she did was cry
for the next couple weeks

then the rage came
and her mom opened the door
all she saw was the girl
doused in blood on the floor

she had a letter in her hand
attached with a bow
and the first line it read was;
"I'm sure by now you know"

"i was not okay
by my best friends death
and this letter that I'm writing
has to be my last breath

and the tears that I've cried
for these past weeks
were the tears for the living
in that which i weep

i didn't cry for her
only for you
because i knew death was coming
and it was coming soon

so this letter that I'm writing
was for you to know
i love you all very much
but sometimes you have to let go

i cant leave her up there
while I'm lying in this bed
knowing some people
are better off dead

i can't let her worry
i can't let her get scared
and even though I'm gone
know that i will always be there

honestly i love you
and i really hope you know
and i really hope you understand
but its my time to go

please complete your lives
but for me its just to late
don't fell any sorrow
and don't concentrate on hate

i did this for myself
at such a high cost
i love you all so much

Sincerely,
A soul who was lost..