Now That Your Gone

Now that your gone and floating amidst
Heaven's shores I keep hearing the
shutting and slamming of doors

Was it you? or my mind playing
goolish ghouls Sweat pouring from
my forehead lying on the floor in a pool

Thoughts keep pounding in my brain
memories of our love shall not ever fade

Why couldn't you tell me you were married?
instead you lead me to believe in a love tale fairy
For over twenty years I stood by you
over and over again and to think
it all started out just being good friends

Lies deception extortions of my beating heart
I played the game for I did not want to part

Someday I hope the good Lord
will forgive me For I'm not one
to get down on my knees and beg and plea

But guilt is just ripping me apart
If I've known you were married
I would of never given you my heart