Dying love

Captivated by your smile
I was trapped in your spell for quite a while
I think you knew
And thats why you flew
But lost in your eyes
I couldn't follow you into skies
How my heart aches
When i look into the lakes
The reflection without you by my side
I couldn't help so i cried
Though many years have given way
I still remember your birthdays in may
To see you hold hands with another guy
Depressing, but i promised myself I'll never cry
As long as your happy I'll shed no tears
Every night under moonlight memories disappears
The emotions into words is the hardest part
But in the end I'll have to make a start
The truth is
I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of lying
I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying