I'm different

I'm hanging on to hope,
don't know how I'm going to cope.
This pisses me off so bad,
and that just makes me sad.

The beauty in me is hidden,
like it is something forbidden.
It's hidden from you all,
so that I won't have to feel small.

The pain will someday find me,
maybe then I'll be free.
The days go by so slowly,
for me to feel holy.

I'm not like all of you out there,
'cause I know why you stare,
I know I'm so much different than you,
but I don't care 'cause now I'm through!