Have you ever drowned in your sleep?
Feeling that cold water run down your throat
Into your lungs.
Suffocating you.
Giving you the desire to keep on breathing.
Just to trick you into having you drown faster.
Have you ever been hit by a car and lay there not wanting to move?
The sudden impact of metal meets body.
Its cold surface pressing on your skin for a split second just to bounce you off some feet from the incident.
Alive through it all.
No sudden pain.
Asking yourself 'what was that..?'
No one running to see if your okay.
Have you ever held your dream, your joy, your need, in your hand.. just for it to leave?
The overwhelming feeling of being protected.
The security of that lasting moment.
Its ability to convince you that it's there to stay.
So confident.
So real.
...then it leaves.
What happened? you ask yourself.
What did I do wrong!? you demand an answer.
Was I too much?
Did I do too little?
This can't be..
That sense of being worthless and unloved kicks in.
So familiar, have we met?
I dont like how you make me feel.
Please go away..please.
Your life continues.
But your dead.
You keep on breathing.
But your still suffocating.
Whatever hit you, hit you.
And your still laying there.
Whatever you had, left.
And its not coming back.
Apparently it wasn't meant to be.
Obviously it wasn't content.
Certainty, it could do better.
