I dont want to be me

A waterfall of tears,
they trickle slowly down my cheek,
a gentle sigh escapes my mouth,
im living through my fears.

makeup running down my face,
i smear it with my hand,
makeup smudged just like my dreams,
they disappeared without a trace.

a slash across my wrist,
my distress shows through so much,
a fleeting moment of anger,
im faced with my own clenched fist.

I try to hide myself away,
a big baggy top,
a fake smile across my face,
this goes on all the time...day after day.

help me to escape my mind,
please free me from my prison,
it feels like nobody can help me,
i want to escape my binds.

if this is how its going to be,
if this is my life,
i just dont want to go on anymore,
i really dont want to be me.