Letting you back in

And how can you expect me
to just let you back in?
after everything we've been through
and everywhere we've bin?

after all those horrible times
when i just wanted to die
sitting in my bed curled up
every night i would cry

i tried to be the best i could
and still you were never proud
you were always telling me i was useless
and i hated when you were loud

and yet you say you love me still
and that your the one thats hurt
i bent over back wards for YOU
YOU treated ME like dirt

I'm the one that cries myself
to sleep overnight in bed
while all the names you called me
are dancing around in my head.

You will never know
how bad you messed me up
I'm always telling myself i can't
that I'm just not good enough

so take your hurtful words
and stop calling my phone
now you can feel the way I've felt
useless cold, and alone