I don't want to live a life where I'm drowning in my own sorrow,
With feelings of death and remorse filling me tomorrow.
I don't want to live a life where I continually miss you all the time,
Not a second goes by that I don't think about you at each step I climb.
Cos it's true that my heart is breaking as every moment passes by,
I can't help but wonder why this happened and why I cry.
Cos you were everything that I ever wanted in my life,
You were an inspiration and a legend that stood by my side.
And I can't help these tears that fall,
For they spell out my grief that continues to call.
Your name each day just echoes in my mind,
There is no subtle peace that I can find.
I don't want to live the way I'm walking right now,
Cos it's only a matter of time before I lose myself forever - I vow.
Why did this all happen and why did it have to break?
I cannot understand why from this nightmare I cannot wake?
I put a smile on my face but it's only fake,
Everyone asks if I'm fine and I silently nod that it's all ok.
But deep down inside I can feel my heart shatter to tiny pieces,
Pieces so small that only grief increases.
I wish there was a way or some kind of sign,
That will make me forget or just something to redesign,
This life that I have that shattered without warning,
Broken and destroyed as I woke up one morning.
Why do complications and misunderstandings arise?
Only to redissolve into murky water with a bitter taste that resides.
If this heart could only just erase memories and walk away,
Forget the past and turn towards something that brings life to stay.
I don't want to live a life where I constantly think of you,
Where I wonder what's happening or what I can do.
I don't want to live this life where I constantly miss you.
I don't want to live a life that just revolves around you...
