Not finisheddd

I dont know what's come over me,
why it was ever even a thought.
I'm letting all these memories fade,
until every moment's lost.

I block them out the best I can,
but I can still see you with closed eyes.
I'll admit, the show was lovely;
but I can see right through your disguise.

I'm aware that I mean nothing,
as it's how it's always been.
But i've never felt like this before,
and it'll end in pieces again.

I'll push you away first,
before you can get to me.
Pretending was nice for a while,
but it's not enough to believe.

**Still Working On**