Never been kissed

I'm 14 and never been kissed
at least i was never dissed
I've had tons of boyfriends
I've had so many
but never bothered to kiss any
it didn't feel right
i held back with all my might
i mean I've kissed them on the cheek
but after wards feel so weak
i want to have my first kiss
but am afraid I'm gonna miss
i think and dream about it everyday
i try to push it out of my mind in every way
i want it to be with the right guy
even if I'm really shy
I'm 14 and never been kissed
at least i was never dissed