Binge and Purge

Im out of control, I know where this is going to put me soon!
Why cant i stop?!
Im ripping through bags of chips, and cookies, barely chewing.
Drinking a bottle of diet soda.

I try to ignore the horrible thing i have just done.
Im nothing but a fat piece of shit.

I cant handle the grief anymore!
I find myself running into the bathroom seconds later..
Quickly tying my hair back.

My face is hanging over of the porcelain bowl,
clean and gleaming white.
i force my two fingers into the back of my throat,
my stomach spills into the bowl,
I repeat over and over again, in between water breaks.
after about 10 minutes...
I lift my head, hair a mess and eyes watering...
while standing up, i catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror.
hello life.