Depression.

She tries to hid behind those ill-formed lies.

Everyone can see the truth in those despair filled eyes.

No matter how hard she tries, no one believes her disguise.

Depression is what she denies, but everyday she feels a part of her dies.

She wants to be able to explain. She really needs to get rid of this pain.

Everyone is trying to get her to understand. All of this, by herself, she cannot withstand.

Any kind of help, she will refuse. This battle with herself, she will surely lose.

It won't be much longer until the burden is too heavy. Eventually, this whole situation will get... bloody.

Hopefully it won't come down to the blade. Maybe all of these dark feelings will fade.

Or maybe it won't get any better. Maybe the blade will be exactly what she chooses for the answer...