My life in a poem

At first I was born
And my parents were happy.
By the time I turned seven,
My parents weren't as happy as
They were when I first came to the world.
It was different, by that time.
Sure it was.

The time had passed now.
And nine I became.
My father moved to the United States,
And my mother and I stayed where we belong.
When my father decided to bring me and my
Mother to where he was, thirteen I became.

Now I'm here, with fourteen years of experience
Trying to live The Dream of an American.
I've succeeded in education and my personality
Is even better.
I think my parents are proud of me, but
My father says that he wants more.
Even though it is hard for me to forget what had happened.

I live a secret life.
A life where no one can't see the true me.
A life that is close to being ended.
A life where I'm going crazy
Because of the way I am.
A life that I have been in the past two years.
A life that right now is worth it, but not for long.

It's a life where I see myself dying
Because of not having something that
I always wanted and that I would
Never have within me.
I can't stand it anymore.
It is killing me.
I can't keep on.
This is way too much.

I have a life ahead of me and a good future.
This life isn't fair for me,
But why worry too much?
If you can keep on doing what you have
Been doing all this time?
It is hard now; it is getting harder.
And I think I might not survive.
I just can't stand it no more.

So why smile,
When you are hurt, depress, inside?
You think it is easy, don't you?
It is not!
It is harder than a coconut can be.
It is as hard as a feeling you get when
Someone breaks your heart.
And the only thing you can do to get it all out
Is writing.
That's why this poem is so long,
I just can't stop writing.

You think that writing would help you?
Writing doesn't have a meaning,
If you don't do it.
So why bother to mention it?
Why?

Now my life is changing and it would keep on.
Now I can see myself being recognized between people.
I am positive, very confident.
Words can't even describe the feeling that
I have right now.
It's a feeling of joy (if that can describe it).
My life had been changed completely.
I now live one life;
A life that I enjoy living.

Happy; a word that I now see every moment.
"How are you?" My friends ask me all the time,
"Happy"! I answer.
Friends I now have;
Brothers and sisters that I've never
Imagine I would have had.
They say its luck that I have
This kind of education.
But, education is just a piece of
My life, that's all.

The upcoming in my being
Would be a pleasant occasion.
Filled with glee and endless love.
Which will come when it's time,
For me to expire.