You make it so hard to leave

And out of all the things I could regret in life, I only regret one thing: Not treasuring the moments when I had everything I ever wanted. I'll look back and wonder what I could've done different, but does it really matter? I did what I did, and there's no turning back; no more offers, no second chances, no apologies. I couldn't resist but have one last nite with you, even though it was such a beautiful disaster in disguise. And we all know that you never appreciate something until it's gone. But I am the exception, because I always knew what I had, and never wanted to lose it. Sometimes things fall apart, but this time you broke it. You didn't give it a chance, you didn't believe in me, and you forgot to remember me. As I walk away, I'm not sure what you'll whisper to my back, "Don't hold on please, let go of me."
But you make it so hard to leave....
And if I'm nothing that you wanted, why can't you just cut all ties, let me go, and don't make any promises. Stop trying to keep me holding on, just let me fall for once. Because last time you just kept me holding on by a string, like you knew what would happen. But this time I can't do it anymore, and I won't wait around. I won't wait for you to hurt me, I'll just take this hit and walk away.
Because nothing hurts worse than wanting something that's close enough to see, but too far away to have. Let me down. Disappoint me. Let me leave. If for nothing else but my own sanity.