It isn't as though I'm always down,
and I'm not one to want to frown.
But lately I've been crying,
and inside I fear I'm slowly dying.
I can't go on like this trying to be tough,
I'm throwing in the towel because I've had enough.
I'm not this strong,
and I'm sorry but you're wrong.
Worthless in your eyes,
and you happily ignore my cries.
This blue world that I call a home,
and this crowded room where I'm all alone.
I want to be happy and forever smile,
I wanted us to last, at least for awhile.
But lately it seems,
that you're not the one in my dreams.
I'm losing control in this otherwise controlled place,
and it's a frown you see on my face.
All through my life I've never felt like I was enough for anyone,
and I've tried to end my life and say I'm done.
I've been through hell and thought it was because I didn't deserve any better,
and I always cried when I got a letter.
I can't go on forcing this thing love,
and I'm pretty sure I don't feel like a dove.
I could run forever like I'm used to,
but life seems so much better when I'm with you.
I see your face and I can't help but act like a little child, and when we're out I just want to act wild.
I love your eyes and the little things that you do,
but I'm sorry though, I have to let go of you.
