Hurt Lost and Confused.

THIS IS NOT REALLY A POEM. ITS MY TRUE FEELINGS AND SOMETHING THAT I AM TRYING TO DEAL WITH RIGHT NOW IN MY LIFE. JUST THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE IT WITH EVERYONE.

Im hurt, Im lost, Im confused.
Im always in pain, be it mental or physical.
I dont know what to do anymore.
Im to the point where I want to move far away from here
And forget everyone. It hurts so much to be here.
Im so scared. Im scared of those I love and
Im scared of everyone around me. For awhile I
Thought that I was happy. I thought that everything was
Getting better. But now I have constant headaches,
Constant pains throughout my body. The pain is excruciating to the point
Of where I want to give up. Now the mental pains...they are
Killing me. I have so much on my mind. I want to get it out.
I want everything to get better. I want to be happy.
I want to be normal. I feel like I am loosing my grip with reality.
Im falling deeper and deeper. Into what? I dont know...
I am starting to feel like my friends are my enemies.
I hope I dont push them away. I also feel like
No one cares again. Especially my family.
I am a complete stranger to them.
I hate it. I hate asking for things
Because I know it will never happen.
I dont want them to know this but the thing that
Pisses me off is when they stand over my shoulder and
Read my personal shit and get into my stuff
And invade my privacy. I am starting to hate them.
Its bad I know but I dont want to talk
To them about this stuff.
I want someone I can trust. But I dont know anyone.
All this shit building up is making me spiral again.
Some people are starting to notice...
But the ones that matter dont see a damn thing.

This is my way I guess of Telling everyone that something is wrong.
Im sorry if it makes me seem so fake and shit but its all the truth.
And I no that only a few people will read this...
But Whatever...