Have you any idea?

Have you any idea
What its like to be me
The way my mind works
And the way that i see?

Have you any idea
About the confusion i feel
The panic & fear
When i don't feel real?

Have you any idea
Of the frustration when you can't concentrate
When the internal anger rises
And yourself you do hate?

Have you any idea
What it's like to be lost
And the quest to find myself
Will come at any cost?

Have you any idea
Of the pain deep inside
Of the need to cut
Then the scars I hide?

Have you any idea
Of the emptiness that engulfs my soul
My heart is stolen
Just a big black hole?

Have you any idea
Of the thoughts in my head
And the constant desires
That I wish I were dead?

Would you like to understand,
Would you like to see
How scary and terrifying
Life can really be?

But words don't have the power
For me to communicate
The pain and the suffering
That has become my fate

You can never understand
What it is like to be me
Cos unlike me you are not cursed
With this thing called BPD*

*BPD stands for borderline personality disorder, an unfortunately common mental disorder i suffer from