Truth has been told
Never did I want to believe that someone would hurt and disgrace me like this
Admitting the only reason for welcoming me into his home and taking care of me was not due to friendship. I was only meant to fulfill his sexual needs. All in all, I was his "home based ho".This entire situation was probably the most well thought out manipulations of the century. Eight years have passed. Now it has all come to me crying, hurting, and hating the fact that I trusted someone so much. Now I am going to paid to leave here. He met a lady, lied about me. Took an oath and swore on his mothers grave to stay "hush hush". Then he told his brother who knows what. His brothers rings me a 6am and threatens me physically. But does the"Friend" care? No not at all. He went away for a bit. Before he returned I asked him to not ask me to do "jobs" anymore. So now I am not needed. Just a simple "home based ho" who refuses to work. Now I have to go away. And his network of friends and family will congratulate him for disposing of the "burden" a.k.a. ME. Hoping that time will heal my wounded heart and soul. As angry as I may be at myself for taking a chance and trusting another, I did gain something.
I gained knowledge
I will be very careful as to ever fully trust another ever again
I will never speak to or contact this person ever again
I do not wish them misery. I do not hate them.
I just pity someone who would take a strong lady and wear her down to a self destructing, Anorexic, sad, miserable hobbit. This was all done because, I HAVE NO FACE. I HAVE NO VOICE. I AM JUST A MACHINE. I lay ON MY BELLY AND INSERT YOURSELF INTO ME. These words are real and true. Life is not meant to be fair. It may be a series of test. Nobody knows for sure why things happen the way they do. We have to pick ourselves up and NOT allow the same thing to knock us back down. Next time I fall it will be from something new. These words are not negative. They are my way of saying, I WILL NOT LET THE SAME THING KNOCK ME DOWN MORE THAN ONCE! NEXT TIME I FALL, IT WILL BE FROM SOMETHING NEW!
