I want to see what I feel

I'll cut my wrists
to see my pain
I'm tired of feeling
something that isn't there

tired of hearing things
that i know aren't true
can't understand truth anymore
why people even bother with lies

i want to bleed
i want to see the blood
touch it, taste it
i need to see the pain
not just feel it

let me take the drug
stick the needle inside
watch it enter into my veins
i want to see the high

you're like my drug
i feel your high
i can't see what makes me feel
but you are deep in my system
and you're driving me crazy