Child Abuse (very sad)

Dear Diary.

I'm still getting funny looks
When I walk around school
I get pushed around and ridiculed
By girls who think theyre cool

I got a black eye for saying sorry
And beaten just for being me
Then I have to come home
And leave it be

Then my parents beat me
And dont stop till I'm out
Now that Ive learnt from my mistakes
I know not to scream and shout

Because if I make a noise
They strike me even harder
I still love them though
Cause theyre my mother and father

The abuse doesnt really stop
Its never really over
It carries on throughout the night
When they force me with a lover

They make me sleep with men
So they can make some money
They let them do whatever they like to me
And think that its funny

Tonight there was a man
And he wore a suit and tie
He spoke some nasty things
Again I just wanted to die

Hello sweetie
He softly spoke into my ear
Were going to have some fun tonight
Then ran his fingers through my hair

He pushed me to the bed
And forced me down with just one hand
With the other fumbling with his zipper
Why can no one understand?

Then he hurt me even more
So much that I bled
Oh oh baby
Are the only things he said

Once the men are finished
Daddy wants some fun
He hurts me all over again
Right until hes done

Dear Diary

Today I'm going to end it
All the abuse and all the pain
I can't take it anymore
If I do, ill go insane

I'm getting out of this place
I'm ending this life
No more pain or helplessness
Thanks to the help of the knife

I know I'm only young
And have so much ahead
But chances are by then
Ill already be dead

What am I supposed to do?
No one will believe a word I say
I'm going to end all the pain now
It�s the only way

I slice into my wrists
Engrave my pain into my arm
Making each slice deeper
Feeling my own abuse and harm

As my blood spills to the floor
I write a message my parents will see
My two last words were
Why me?