What You Have (betting it's still hurting)

Read my lips, say my name
Look me in the eyes and tell me
You're not in any pain
Don't tell me I'm wrong, I know
You best of all, the best ways
To make you lie, laugh, or cry
I can see it in your distant smile
The way your eyes don't shine
Tonight I feel all those words
That you left going unsaid, never
Telling me how much you cared
Those mistakes you made,
I have to say I never encouraged
The truth to come out,
I was scared of losing you
Until I really let you disappear
I wasn't ready to hear you say that
You still did love me, things were
Going to be awkward. You were
But my friend of night and light
The day and dark, you held me
Now that's gone too, like you
I was left angry at you for leaving
Those things left without being heard
But I have to be upset with me
Now, dear, because I never told you
Either, how much I needed you
My air, you made me smile, never happy
Just there, you made me seem normal
Making me feel just fine, better than
My stinky little average of pain
Losing you, it hurts me too.
You're blind, I'm ignoring this
Those empty shallow stares, hatred
I cut up the music, dream of you
I don't understand what you see
But I can almost garuntee you don't
Really see me, probably a monster
I did that to save us both
Sweetie, it did save you much more pain
Than what I've been through
At least I didn't lie, go fake to you
Babe, hold me in your arms
And still tell me it's going to be ok
Because I'm shaking, I'm shivering
Wasting energy on these hopes
That maybe it wasn't so bad, romance
It just went awry and now we've paid
The dues I owe you, i can't explain
But see, this bill, we're even to bet
'Cause I cause you hurt, but you
Broke me into smaller pieces
By letting simple emotions go unsaid