Why

Why is a question i keep asking myself
why when i hear the words i love u
i feel trapped and got to run from
the people that say it to me why i cry

i wonder is it because as a child id hear it
and i knew i was in for a lot of hurt and pain
after the abuse id hear that word again
as i am laying on the floor blooded and hurt

why me i cry i ran away from whats was
spoused to make me happy i feel so alone
but i know theres people that will always
love and say it to me but cant they see

that the words thats spoused to make me
happy and full of joy hurts me so much
as i hear it today i know i should dance
and be happy but i keep thinking that word
means pain and hurt to me and makes
me want to cry and die but thats not my way

why is love so confusing to me
i just will never know but i do have
some ideas on why the word i love
u makes me run and hide