I forget

As i reach for her throat
i forget what brought this all on
and i begin to drown her boat
i forget all her lies

i forget all she did wrong
i forget how i hate her
i forget hows she hurts me
i forget that slap to my face

i forget all i ever thought of her
i forget that shes my mom
i forget that i still love her
i forget that she yells at me

i begin to loosen my grip
i begin to loose my mind
i run to my room
screaming i hope u have learned

as i lay down
just wanting my boo
i begin to remember my options
and as the razor rips my skin

i begin to cry
i remember who loves me
i rrememberthat he still cares
i remember that i love him

i remember that i am hurting him
from my hhideouscrime
that all he wants
is for me to be happy