Sometimes things are going upside down.
My world seems to always be filled with tears.
The moment this happens.
I feel like maybe this is what I deserve.
Sometimes I can smile for others.
My world appears much promising,
The moment is longer to them,
I feel like I'm dying inside though.
Sometimes I think my life is just a game.
My world is just charades.
The moment is painful,
I feel like giving up before its too late.
Sometimes I see things that keep me awake at night,
My world is filled with dead people & monsters,
The moment I see those images I want to scream.
I feel like I'm a child once again.
Sometimes love intoxicates my soul,
My world is filled with their face
The moment is driving me insane,
I feel the heartache getting to me.
Sometimes I watch myself cut my arms.
My world is just spinning in circles,
The moment feels like ever-lasting,
I feel like the pain is gripping onto my throat.
Sometimes I want to cut really deep,
My world could be less painful then,
The moment doesn't go away,
I feel like I should go die anyway.
Sometimes I feel like ending this,
My world is just a black darkness,
The moment is just like a rainy day that never goes,
I feel like I've died inside anyway.
Sometimes everything is broken & hazy
My world is just blood & tears,
The moment is making me feel caught in a trap,
I feel inside I am broken too.
Sometimes I regret who I am,
My world puts shame on me because I'm a monster,
The moment is terrifying, I wish I could change,
I feel like I should cut deeper next time.
Sometimes suicide seems promising to me,
My world could not make others endure anymore,
The moment is creeping over me,
I feel like screaming out into the sky.
Sometimes I wish I was in another body.
My world might seem much easier,
The moment is always in the back of my head.
I feel maybe the mirror might not curse me.
Sometimes I want to cut my throat instead,
My world then could end the pain,
The moment might stay for a while,
I feel like I'm so insane inside now.
Sometimes I wonder what happened to me,
My world has never been perfect,
The moment like this though, never existed.
I feel like killing myself before it gets worse.
Sometimes I want out of the painful darkness,
My world seems to tear me apart inside,
The moment is getting to me like the voices,
I feel they will get me one day.
Sometimes I think this is my last option,
My world is just too much now.
The moment is forever , loveless for all eternity.
I feel this is my fate, to bleed out.
