My Perfect Sinn.

I walk this world and the world hates me, why I don't know my memory is still a bit fuzzy but I am damned, I walk the streets of a world that would prefer me not in it, what sin did I commit against the world.

I do not yet understand my life or why it was given to me, I should be dead but I'm not, not death but life was given to me if the world hates me so, God why did you save me, I cant tell you now but I am meant to do something wonderful, something great for God my one and true savior. I guess no matter how far I fall I can always look for my God no matter how black the world seems to get, I know He wants me to live.

But even knowing God is there for me the world still hates me, it's hard to walk this world without any one next to you. You feel cold and empty inside like nothing was meant for you. I know I wasn't meant to walk this alone but I never felt worthy to be with any one else.

I have my brothers, the family I never had and yet I still feel alone. They have been there for me since I can remember and they have loved me like a family should, I have never known a moment without them that was worth remembering.

I found you or should I say my brother found you for me. He saw your heart and knew it wasn't quite full. He knew how to fill it; he knew you could fill me and I could fill you, two broken hearts that were meant to make one whole.

I'm lost?

I'm lost!

I'm lost without you now; I didn't know some one could have such a hold over another. You, you have such a hold on my heart, it hurt it hurts so bad but I don't want you to ever let go I want this pain I want to know what it's like to feel this way. I want...

...You.