2nd best

A year & half, and you threw it all away.
And because I love you so, I cant force you to stay.

I knew from day one id never win,
But I never knew when your doubts would begin.

You said your love for me was true,
lying to yourself as you tried to change me into someone you knew.

I was never thin enough, graceful or pretty.
I wasnt smart enough, classy or very witty.

I know and am certain our love was real,
But in your head, I never matched her appeal.

So as I friend, I made you see,
That with her, is the place you really want to be.

Its tearing me up inside, im such a mess.
To once again, like always, be second best.

And here I am, im all alone.
Jumping with hope with every sound from my phone.

Hoping that its you on the line,
Calling to say its a mistake, "will you be mine"

Waiting, hour by hour,
And the silence seems to be growing louder.

So unbearable its Piercing my ears,
As I wipe these mascara smudged tears.

Im sure one day this pain will go away,
Once you and her fail, and you ask me to meet you halfway.

And I promise ill come running,
If you promise this time, its not for nothing.

Or maybe iv lost you forever,
And this heart aching pain wont fade ever.

And your love for me will completely disappear.
The days will pass and what I feel in my chest will get more severe.

Find your way back, I plea.
Because I cant take another day without you here with me.

So ill trust the old saying
"let something go, if it comes back, its meant to be"