To My Forsaken "Friend"

I'm quickly coming to terms
with my very deepest fear
you, my false, frigid 'friend'
are no more than insincere.

Our concord quickly fades
When I need support the most
When I turn to you for comfort
I am forced to weep alone.

For when the rain is pouring
And the gloomy clouds are cast
You disappear from my life;
Yet another traitor in my past.

As the sun overcomes the clouds
You regain your strength once more
Your grip on me becomes predominant
Suddenly my emotions are at war.

A silent tear rolls down my cheek
As it blends placidly with the rain
Coming to this harsh understanding
Does nothing but amplify my pain.

Now you tease and taunt me;
My dark side looming close behind
Signifying the complacency
That I will surely never find.

You follow me as if to symbolize
The darkest depths of my being
I'll no longer confide in you
Be damned, you wretched thing.

So instead of crying on my own
In unison with a blackened sky
The clouds will be my refuge
No longer will I be led awry.

You have never been my comrade
I've been mistaken this whole time
You're not so high and mighty
When the sun isn't in the sky.

Now know I have forsaken you
Be gone, my false and frigid 'friend'
You no longer have a hold on me
I will stand alone until the end.

**So, if you haven't figured it out already, this poem is about shadows. I was pondering topics to write about ( I haven't written a poem in about 8 months), and something occurred to me. Shadows bring you false hope. You would think that when all else fails, you'd still have your own shadow as your companion. The reality is that you don't. They completely disappear when you need them the most... when it's storming. The weather in the poem, obviously symbolizing how you feel emotionally.

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