Screwing up

by SgrQn   Feb 24, 2009


Sleeping. Dreaming.
Its the only place I'm ever happy anymore.
the only place to remember those days.
Me with you
you with me
Us. together.
almost... forever

Then i screwed up.
funny..
i never screw up
a life like mine,..
i just can't make mistakes.
and the one time where it means the most..
i do.

I never really understood it all.
why i did it.
I know. i just wasn't good enough
compared to your love, mines nothing
and so i let you go.
hoping, maybe you'd be happier with someone else
someone... better

and then slowly i began to feel .. empty
hollow, and lost
i didn't know who i was.
i was scared, and i was alone
i was so afraid.

I'm fine now.
though fine is no where near to how i feel,
i pretend
not for me, but for everyone around me
i paste a smile, and act... normal
but really .. I'm hiding it all
the pain, the tears... and the heartache
i miss him. with all my heart and all my soul.
thats a lot.
but its not enough...
i miss you Jae... and words just won't explain.

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