Suicide

I've tried to hard to face it,
Accept that you're not here,
My friends, I know, can see it,
As they wipe away a tear.

Shattered memories, a whole in my heart,
I can not seem to refill,
And even if I could fill the void,
I know that I'd miss you still.

In many ways I've covered up,
The way I feel inside,
But now I can take not a second more,
So I now resort to suicide.

I've hurt myself inside and out,
My friends don't have a clue,
Of how deep within my heart,
And how much I really loved you.

So I sit along, dagger in hand,
And hold it to my throat,
To the many friends I leave behind,
I write this little note.

'Don't think I never loved you,
Don't think I didn't care,
Don't think I'll ever leave you,
Say my name, I'll be there.
I'm sorry I have to leave you,
Losing him broke my heart,
Everyday brought untold pain,
From the moment he had to part.
So goodbye my friends I love you,
I'll think of you at night,
And no matter where, I'll be there,
As in the dark I am the light.'

The deed is done, I perish,
My body lifeless, I'm finally dead,
Now I can dream of better days,
As I lay asleep on my bed.

This is how much I miss you,
To the point I had to die,
As living without you was killing me anyway,
And I long to be with you, Kai.

xxx Kim xxx