Will it be worth it?

I feel alone,
I never not open up to anyone
and I've forgotten about everything

My loved ones, they care
but I wish no more
no more of this

My hands, once a helping one
is now used as violence
but I wish not to hurt,

desperately I want to reach out
and hold onto someone
but somehow I'm letting go.

I've already had enough
and if i must continue,
things will get worst

so this is the only way,
the only way to end it,
but yet i wonder

when I'm gone
will it ever be worth it
to come, back here?