Afraid and alone

I am afraid and alone.
I overreact and cry easily.
Depression has overgrown,
The part of me that was happy.

This is not how I am,
And not how I want to be,
I don't want to overreact
And I hate myself for crying easily.

In fact I'm not alone,
Because I have you,
But I fight more,
Than that I make my feelings true.

But you make me doubt myself,
Even though you love me more than anything,
I make your feelings different than what you want me to feel,
It's sad, but it's always happening.

Like how you always talk to her,
Accept her in every way.
Always have the smoothest conversations..
I wish between us it was that way.

And I don't want to be jealous,
Because I don't have to be,
And you always assure,
There's nobody else you want more than me.

But that's why I'm alone.
My stupid thoughts don't like me,
It's amazing what they can do,
To make me see negatively.

You're the one I love,
And I don't want to lose you,
Because of stupid s h i t,
We go through.