Missing you

I don't know what to do
I see you in my head
I see you in my dreams
And I know you wish I were dead
But I miss you so much
It's hard for me to breath
It's hard for me to process
It's impossible to think
I don't know why it hurts so much
To hear them speak your name
And they all assume I hate you
Because you pushed me far away
I cry inside whenever I think of your smiling face
I miss the warmth in your laughter
The safety of your embrace
I don't know how to cope
I've lost all dream, all hope
I make these scars because of you
And they are unaware
That I miss you and still love you
They think I honestly no longer care
They think that I'm ok with you hating me
But they are obviously blind, they obviously don't see

They don't see it in my eyes
The pain you left behind
The pain that breaks my heart so bad
And I am simply going mad.......