Here i go again

Here i go doing it again
cutting my self like there's no end
with every cut i get deeper
going deep just makes it easier
the blade is razor sharp
just like your words that i took to heart
it started with just one
and i thought i was done
but then you hurt me again
so now its time for the cutting to really begin
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 now across one arm
hell why stop now a few more wont cause more harm
8 9 10 11 12 sh** there's no more cutting space
time to move on to my leg heres the perfect place
right next to an important vein
that just might stop the pain
this was something i thought i would never do
i cant believe you made me want to
i want you to know it took a lot to get me here
and i no longer hold any fear
if i die then i die
it doesn't matter everything that meant anything was all a lie
some people like to close there eyes
i guess they think they wont feel it then but thats just a lie
i on the other hand like to watch the blade slide across my skin
watch it be sliced open from beginning to end
i like to watch my blood drip to the floor
1 2 3 4 all across my thigh its not enough i want more
5 6 7 8 9.... i don't feel it any more my legs gone numb i wipe off my blood thats on the knife with my thumb
12 on my arm 18 on my leg, i guess i should put it away
sweat shirt and pants i wear the next day
i looked down on this habit you had
but now i see its not that bad
but in those cuts bad scars to be i hold no pride
from you i will not hide
i want you to see what i have done
that way you know you have won
know that you took my heart
and just tore it apart
made my world come crashing down
my once great smile now a frown
but you have a habit to not finish what you start
lead people make them love you then walk away its like your trade mark
and you only do it to the ones that love you
along comes a challenge and you back down, from you its nothing new
every time you hurt me you left another scar
well I'm gonna finish the job for you, i cant believe this is who you really are
by the time you realize just how i feel
it will be to late to make it real
cause one night while I'm finishing your deed
I'm gonna hit that vein and just let it bleed