A Crippled, Misunderstood Future To Haunt Me

I see, but do not understand
I hear, but do not comprehend
As this world flows around me
I wonder, when I lost sight of my life

When did I sink so low?
That I would justify
The tongue lashings
I seem so content to receive

Where arm grabs
And bruising shoves
"Aren't as bad as before" and
"are his way of showing love"

Where fear from his reaction
Binds my tongue
And knowledge of our future
Will haunt me tonight

So I ask again
When did this, lasting fear
And haunting screams
Became my reality

Where has the girl
I once knew disappear too?
And will screams of rage
Forever cripple this life?