A winter of frozen wishes.
a rain flooding dreams,
and a sunny day that ruins your life.
a description that takes more than an image.
disgusting and vial.
words that haunt and a mean touch.
how was it led to this.
it captured me.
its held me tight into one place.
starring into fear.
they say if you face your fear it will go away and not be so bad.
but this is one i faced and it only lead to a cold heart that was made of steal.
an invasion of secret desire made clear through a never ending reality.
painful memory of violation.
a day on hold like it was just yesterday and never to forget.
an obsession for a fantasy come true through only one chance.
one chance that decides your future.
you can run.
you can hide
but i can still see you.
i can run,
i can hide
and you are still that haunting nightmare.
its not a basic understanding.
its not just a dream anymore.
almost a year and it still hurts.
a tear may not do it,
a few more still don't.
I'm not seeing that rainbow after the clock started,
looking at it and the time hasn't changed.
you are here and you are there.
I'm drowning in lies while you hold my head under water.
my heart abused with scars.
a silence that is heard to everyone.
a darkness closing in through yet another helpless day.
another helpless dream.
a painting of unwashable ink and a cold chill the has no warmth.
covering up with words what you see wasn't wrong
it was your own pleasure you were chasing.
come out of the shadows and stop hiding.
tell the truth and take responsibility.
a piece of paper and words that restrict weren't good enough for you then.
still aren't good enough. i try and fail to forget.
a dream.
a memory.
a dirty blade.
and a court day that changes our lives.
