Just jump

I've pushed everyone away
So why am I crying because I'm lonely
I did this to myself
So why am I trying to blame everyone but me
I do deserve what I'm getting
Because I've always been the bad guy
I need to learn that sorry doesn't work anymore
Maybe cause I've used it to many times
How come I'm not learning from my mistakes?
They just keep repeating over and over again
No matter how many times I tell myself I'm ok
I'm really not, so why say it?
What's the point in telling me I'm together?
When I'm apparently shattered all over the floor
Do you think it will ever get better?
Cause I'm so close to the edge
I might as well jump