Lost Him to Drugs

I stare into his red, weary eyes
I scream my lost trust for him
Holding the artifact he attempted to steal
As he lies and denies, so easilly to see through.

I slammed the door and remembered
The times I spent in his arms,
And the times I spent wishing I was in his arms.

I fell in love, the moment i looked into his deep blue eyes, with his blonde hair swept amidst his face.
His complexion was so pale, that my love-gaze could be reflected back at me, and i saw just how deeply in love i was.

When I think of him, I dont think of the
Sinful, ruthless, ignorant person he is now..

I think of the amazing, caring, funny, sweet,
nice guy he used to be,
and when I realize that he is gone
I cry the heaviest tears of existance.

How could this happen? What did I do wrong?
I blame his flawlessness on myself and believe
that I didn't show him the love that i felt inside.

I know the feeling of being lonely,
its the most terrible thing of all.
I also know the feeling of being loved,
I think that was just what he needed.
Its too late.

Its the path he chose, and I tried to redirect him,
I did all i could do, which is try, and I failed.
Its too late to turn back.. Because he's lost.. in drugs.

Forever mine.. turned into for-never mine.