I want to feel so connected
I need to feel as though i matter
I just want to watch it from a distance
The fact i have been hiding forever
I lack the necessary skill to do as i wish
That is the reason i continue to wish in vain
I smashed my intimate wishes so long ago
Such actions have left me with nothing but pain
Every choice and decision
Made so long ago
Every down fall i feel now
Has been created by me
If i had just turned the page
To the next chapter
Looked just a bit further
I would have seen the hell that awaited me
If acceptance is the last stage of depression
Then i have gone as far as i can go
If it only meant i could go on and live without regret
It would be a great relief. As it is acceptance has brought me nothing
