So much pain and hurt (not that good)

I hurt so much inside that access is denied. i lost all of my pride. when i found out u were leaving all i did was cried. u r my dad and Ur always so mad. i guess their is no guy in this world that wont hurt me maybe i am suppose to be a Lezbie
i cant do this any more please mom shut my door. i need to be alone. i feel like I'm trapped in another persons clone i feel so numb i have no feels i have become dumb. i am lying in my bed oh my god i am dead.......

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