Losing her

She was never mine to begin with
so how could she be lost
I never loved her
she never loved me
at least i don't think
you never know maybe she was head over heals for me
but I'll never know
irritating jealously, convict6ions of denial
I refuse to admit they I miss her but I do
she gave me shadows for eyes
and with this darkness to my surprise
I was given ease, i could see in the darkness
still blind with a bit of rage but i could see
your going after bigger and better dreams
something you could never achieve with me