My Own Dear Heroine

I long to hear from you each passing day,
Just to know how you are, your family and friends,
The urge to give my life up, gets stronger minute by minute,
The need to see you, hold you, be with you pulling me on,
My want for you, pulses through my veins, fuelling my desire,
My addiction for you, makes me stronger, makes me vulnerable to boot,
I fear you're no good for me, giving me a false high,
You're my personal drug; I need my destroying fix,
Without you, I'm going weak; with you I'm weaker,
I've been letting down my walls, welcoming you in,
But you just smash right through them, enjoy your victory,
I can feel my insides burning, turning me inside out,
The whirlwind you have me in, causing confusion,
Deeper and deeper I go into the despair you've left behind,
You make me feel so alive, yet my death is so near,
Your love, devotion, your hatred and lies,
Making me believe you once cared for me, selling my sacred beliefs,
You cut me open from within; creating dreams I would love to live,
Anything but the hell my beautiful angel has uniquely crafted,
I need my habit fed, though I need you gone,
How twisted you've made me, I yearn for your approval,
I wish I could quit you, I wish you would let me,
You drag me into the layers of hell; I never wished to go,
Your affect on me is terminal, my own dear heroine,
My craving for you gets stronger, I wish you long gone,
I can't find my cure; I'm almost giving up,
Destroy me love, burn me faster, you've become my lifeline,
I can't get you out of my mind; my body can't get enough,
Please stop this torture; I need my next hit,
My survival depends on you; I can't get enough,
I can feel you on the inside, no knowledge how you got there,
I feel you in my brain, making me feel weak,
I'm just a shell to you, one for you to beat,
How does the earth keep spinning, now you're not around?
I need you with me, without you I'm numb,
I need your repair, your healing hand,
I can't take you any longer, I hate that you're in demand,
You're voice is like the chorus, coming from on high,
Your words are Satan's gleeful song, cursing me to this,
I live my life without you, a pathetic mime,
You've filled my life with nightmares, refusing to hold me through,
You're presence I need, a joyful overdose of pain,
I need to feel your warmth; to thaw out the cold,
I need you to freeze the inferno you've created, within my veins,
I need you out my system; you've taken over my life,
Give me my back essence, or take your creation,
The rush in which you give me, is beyond any man can make,
You are slowly killing me, my personal drug.