My past, my future, my life

My heart aches, it screams,
I fall to my knees and cry.
My eyes are calling to you,

I'm crying, but no one is listening
leave me here on the outside.
Broken paths cannot be mended, feelings erased
Even as time moves at a progressive pace.

Hate becomes like a soft loving home to me.
It controls my mind, fills every surface, it's like my own little sanctuary.
It cradles me and holds me tight, it's the only thing that loves me and I love it right back.
It has a pull on me, yet I don't have to fight.

The pain runs to my core,
It burns into my heart,
I wish I couldn't feel,
My soul has been ripped apart.