How do you get away from internal darkness?
A cloud of darkness always following short behind or above.
In the rest of my life there was so much light.
Why did I choose to hide in the scariest corner?
The corner where I am not me, but me is I.
It's where I become my worst nightmare.
It's who I have become.
A girl who walks peacefully, with a smile to turn heads.
The same girl goes home and cry's herself to sleep.
People tell her they'd do anything to have her life.
In her mind she thinks.
'I'd give what little I do have, to be anyone but me.'
She cry's for hours because she knows she's stuck as herself.
Her only fear.
She lives in a own parallel universe that she created herself.
It's created from all the pain, misery, and failure.
It's where nothing but pain and strength exist.
It's all that can exist. Well. at least in a world like this.
If they only understood what happens behind closed hearts.
They have no idea about the life we lead.
They never suspected me. but then again. neither did I.
I fell into it and made it a lifestyle before I could breath.
I'm going down in quicksand in which there is only one way to travel. Down.
The truth is. on this physical Earth, You're all alone.
Born alone, die alone.
I'm stuck in this life like a diver in water with no snorkel.
Still belongs but no air to breath.
Everyday the feeling gets more real.
Every night my thoughts get louder.
All this time my hearts been getting harder.
Every week the reasons get stronger.
Every second my trust gets weaker.
Every evening the knife goes deeper.
Now there's nothing left of me but common interest.
I'm standing alone with this fight against myself.
I defend myself as much as I attack myself.
It's a never ending battle.
I'm everything I don't want to be but can't leave.
But everything I am is all I fear,
and all I have to face in the end.
