I don't understand....

I don't understand what goes on in my mind,
Every time I wake up in my thoughts you I always find.
But somehow I know... We will never be,
Yet I still hope for a you and me.

I can't tell you what I feel,
I can bleed upon my knees.
I can't tell you how much you mean to me...
How I wish I could show you what I see.

Deep down inside I cannot understand,
These feelings erupting but when do they end?
My love just keeps on burning but I can't really tell,
What's going on or how hard I fell.

These tears I'm crying but they don't tell the way,
And every path I take doesn't shine like today.
I never knew that I felt this way about you...
But I know that I'm still so in love with you.

Tell me baby, what must I do?
When I all do is think of you,
My heart shines but there's nothing inside,
Just an empty carcass with golden leaves that hide.

I want to tell you that I can't take no more,
That you should leave me and shut my heart's door.
But every time I try my heart just stops,
And every feeling just turns to knots.

How I wish every feeling would turn to ash,
Graveyards depicting how much I now detest.
Friendships and love upon a dove's nest once arose,
Awakened into a yearning for long lost souls.

Yet I bleed these wounds so fresh,
My heart aches and my soul burns as new whips lash.
Turning whispers can't resurrect an empty soul,
Heartless ways that turn one stone cold.

Maybe upon a day soon I will walk that step,
Away from you, Away from all the rest.
But I'll wait for I know it won't last,
These feelings of love will soon go past.