Suicide Not3

Mom dont think this is your fault i love you and im sorry that i left. Dad i hate you so much and i wont regret what i doing because of you, you called me a failure you called me a loser, i couldn't stand to see your face thats why i joined the military. i cant stand to be here anylonger thats why i must die. You kicked me out you called me nothing, you wouldn't even let me come to my grandma's funeral. your worthless, and you think im worse. Your a cop so i cant do crap. You were the one that ended my life and not this gun. I hate you and i hope you always know that. I hope when you finally do realize that u screwed up that its to late because then you will know how i feel when i stay up and wait. I turned the music up so you couldn't hear it go off. I didnt want anyone to hear it which im sure no one did.. I was sitting in a room all by myself im sorry ms thomas i made a mess on your sheets. I cant stand this life and i cant stand this madness. The world is crashing and i just bit the barrel. I hope you all realize how much you miss me when i pull this trigger. I love my gun it is one of my passions im a good shot and i know i wont miss, i just hope it doesnt hurt when i pull the trigger. I wonder if ill flinch. Goodbye. Thank you ms thomas and spencer you have been more to a family to me than that of my own. Goodbye
Stuart